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Lust. What is it? Is lust a pure form of sexual desire? Or is it something deeper, more intimate? How can one tell?
Desire. Is this what our minds really want? How does it differ from...Lust? Are they one and the same?
For instance I desired to have sex with a dear friend, whom I have lusted after for a long time. Guilt settles in. I love my husband, I desire him, and I lust for him. So how can I lust after and desire another?
Temptation settles in. My eyes seek out my friend's. My body grows warm and my cheeks flame with the thoughts in my mind. I glance at my man. My heart skips a beat. He knows! What to do? He is such a part of me, I do not have to tell him. He comprehends instantly what I hope for. The instant feeling of guilt. It is overwhelming. But it is in intense battle with ... desire.
Time passes, lust builds. The tempo is picking up. My friend is still in my mind. I find myself short of breath at the possibilities. I must stop myself. I will control my desires. I will.
His hand brushes against my breast. Accidentally, I suppose. I glance to see if my husband notices. He acknowledges with a smile. What? I ask myself. More touches, and hey, my friend appears to be looking at me like a woman. Could I possibly evoke the same feelings in him? Should I ask? We see him all the time, and lately there is more undercurrent, or is it in my mind?
The three of us is here alone. The touching is getting aggressive. The flame is stoked. I am wanting to find out the answer. I want to be with him, I want them both! I hold my breath. Questions race through my mind. My body is alive, senses alert.
The body language is loud. Finally, the answer. Yes, he is tempted too. My husband knows! He actually appears to want me to sample our friend. My body is on fire. I am excited and scared. I want this so much. Will it change me forever? Will I go through with it. I want it!
My friend touches me, my husband kisses me. I shudder. I will take control, I will, I say to myself. My friend gets closer, I shiver. I will answer my questions. It is now or never. Will he want me? Will my husband stay by my side?
Oh, my God! They are touching me, oh please I beg silently, I need to explore my desires. Lust rages. I want to be with them both! They taste me. I scream inside. I do want this. I need this. I grab him. I taste him. Surprised, it is better than I dreamed. More, I need more. It can't be over yet. The desire is just being fed. The crescendo is building. They both continue to explore me. I am finally getting to experience what my mind already knew.
I drink of them both. I want them, I want him. Can I take him inside? My wetness surrounds his sheath. Uh, it feels good. I continue to swallow my husband. My friend feels so good. My hips move to the rhythm. My breasts need the unending attention. My womanhood is swollen with desire.
The two of them give me the results. I take my husband deep. Oh, it feels good. I need his loving reassurance. My mouth works our friend. So different and yet so alike.
All three of us explored the idea together....Lust or desire?
